The good news!

Apologies for leaving this a little too long, I went to the hospital last week and was thankfully told everything is ok. As you can imagine I'm delighted. I was worried my anxiety would take a few months to get restored but I have already successfully done an all day shoot since my diagnosis with the wonderful trio -Tim, Dinah and Mary.. They were fantastic to work with and I really can't wait to see their images from the day.

I have a new addition - in the form of a bit of "fluff". I think its staying, well for the time being anyway because I do feel like it adds something to images. We'll see though!

We are shooting Abbier this weekend, very excited to be working with another model and being the photographer rather than a model. I have no idea what I will be shooting yet and i'm slightly nervous but it should turn out well..

I have a few things coming up to look forward to so im sure i will be back updating very soon.

Chrissie xx

Still in limbo.... yawns

Well its been awhile, or at least it has felt like it has.

Again I don't have much exciting news to report on but I do have some pictures Rory and I have shot recently, mainly spur of the moment stuff when we have had energy left at the end of the day.

Below is a beautiful drawing 50lbhead done for me over on DA - Its titled - Girlrocks, inspired by a photograph taken about 2 years ago. Nice to see other people still getting joy and inspiration from one of my images.

I can tell the winter is coming, I have been bloody freezing the past couple of days even when the sun is shining.

I have the hospital next week, I'm really scared but it will be better getting it over and done with so I can get on with my life rather than being a big anxious ball of mess like I have been these past few weeks.

Anyhow time for a cup of tea, Thanks to all the awesome people who have been wishing me well recently - Especially Aimee and congrats to her for becoming a godmother this week!

Till next time..

Chrissie xx

Clouds in my bathroom...

Before I start posting my most depressed pictures heres one of me with squirty cream from a few weeks back.. Just spotted it in a folder which Rory and I have not actually taken a look through yet so in my "usual" photoshopping the only thing which has been done to it is tweaking the lighting and stuff because I was too lazy to do anything else and because there is a ton of dishes waiting to get cleaned...

Well although i have officially been on a break you can't really keep a camera away from me. Here are some Rory shot of me earlier this week just using the light available in the bathroom, a toilet roll tube and a candle holder..

Its hard to explain how I have been feeling in words recently - I know chances are there is nothing to worry about but there is that 1% of doubt in my mind that things aren't going to turn out for the best and its during these doubting moments that I'm at my lowest ebb. No matter how many people say "everything will work out ok" I have trouble believing them, although I like to think of a glass as being half full this week I have been thinking its half empty.

A day with Barrie :-)

Still no news about when I have to visit the hospital for tests which is a shame because I hate living in Limbo although this week has been much better than the end of last week was. Anyway here are some images Barrie kindly sent me over from our shoot last week, I had a wicked day with him at the beach and really like some of the pictures he has sent me over..

I fell over and got a slight injury while shooting with him, over a week later and I still have a bruise just a good job its not sore and I don't have to worry about covering it up for anyone because I'm having a little break until the dark cloud has gone away from over my head...

I wish I could give a long list of things I have been up to - make it sound more exciting like Bink's blog or something but afraid other than tea/toast and occasional trips to the local shops nothing much exciting has happened this week to speak about..

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A day with Barrie :-)

not as positive as I would have hoped..

Well yesterday was not good, need to go for some more tests but staying positive, taking at least the next couple of weeks off modelling well i wont be working with anyone but I'm feeling kind of inspired at the moment to do some emotive self portraits but today I don't have the energy so I will do it another day when I have the will to get out of bed..

*shakes herself off and smiles*

xxxx

My weekend in York..

So heres a run down of last weekends events, as always I will include the bad stuff...

We left Perth at about 3.30 had a fairly chilled out trip down, as usual we took our time and stopped off a fair bit. We finally got to our hotel in Leeds at about 11pm.. Had to walk 10 minutes from the car park to get to the hotel and took us about 3 or 4 trips around Leeds to actually find the 20 story hotel but we made it.

We checked in and I mentioned to Rory that it smelled a little bit weird throughout the hotel, almost like a sewer or drainage problem but it wasn't too strong in the hallways.. It was bloody knockout in the bedrooms though, the bedroom has fag burns in the dated old carpet.. We done a quick shoot even though I thought I was going to be sick, I tried covering the smell with perfume and opening the windows after all we couldn't go anywhere because we had a wedding to go to first thing in the morning.. I really couldnt handle the smell so ended up going to reception, they told me they had no other rooms and I just asked for my money back which they gave me but no apologies for the room smelling like shit. So anyone travelling to Leeds - NEVER EVER stay in the Park Plaza, they do not deserve their 4 * status at all the place is a stinky dive in desperate need of a plumber and cleaner.

So 1.30am comes around and we are still hotel'less, we decided to just find a travel in and cross our fingers. We found one but he said it was fully booked the receptionist called a few other places but they were also all booked.. He must have felt sorry for us because he gave us a room which technically should not have been rented out, it had a plumbing problem and smelled a little like smelly feet which I could and would just have to deal with, it was cheap and had a clean bed in it.

So the day of my Cousins wedding had arrived, Rory and I needed a shower and a bit of chill out time so met up with my mum and dad at their hotel and got ready there, it was the hotel where the reception was talking place so perfect really.

The wedding itself was in York Minster, absolutely gorgeous building and now the whole family know what its like being a tourist attraction as when we were leaving the minster there was at least 30/40 tourists taking pictures of the wedding party. It was like being at some really badly organised groupshoot lol.

Here is a little shot of the Happy couple - my little cousin Jacqueline and her Hubby Aaron, they make a fantastic couple and both Rory and I were delighted to be invited to help celebrate their big day. I do wish their happiness continues for many years to come!

Here is me and the mothership and fathership, Glad dad made it down to the wedding as his health has not been great recently.

Anyway today is a big day for me, I'm of to go get something checked out at the Drs.. I have been pretty worried about it but I'm sure everything will turn out ok in the end. I had a shoot with Barrie Spence yesterday which really took my mind off the examination im having today, we went to the beach and had a fabulous time together.

Right time for me to go have a cup of tea... fingers crossed my next blog will be a really positive upbeat one.

xxxxxx