AWOL

I have to admit I have been avoiding blogging, been going through a bit of a crappy time. Usually modelling takes my mind off troubles but this time sadly its not been the case. I do have a nice blog to post up but I feel like I need to unload the crappy things on here.

My dad was hospitalised again 4 weeks and 1 day ago -  some people knew that last winter he was struggling, well this year there has been no progress during his hospital stay, infact things just keep getting worse and his pain levels almost make me feel sick.

He had a really bad night last week and said "don't change the wedding date" and has written his speech from his hospital bed incase he doesn't make it to the wedding and its totally breaking me up. We planned the wedding shortly after his last "recovery" after realising that even though we could wait 10 years other people probably can't.

So wedding planning on the run up to Christmas while worrying like this about dad hasn't been an inspiring time in my life at all.

So if there is a long spell between updates and images please just wait for me, I'm sure my passion will come back with fighting force when all this stuff is out of the way. I really hope it does anyway!

and I will post a nice positive post after this one to make up for the moaning and sad tone of this update.

xxx