Sunday, 30 September 2012

Testing and chasing the sun!

Well I was making shapes today! Hurray :D
Its been awhile since I actively thought "I'm going to try something new" - usually it just kind of happens. I rarely photograph well from behind but I actually really rather like these. I had been wanting to do these as a self portrait but don't have a tripod which will stand 15 feet in the air so I had to ask Rory to hold the camera. We tried some front on shots but with me being limited in space it wasn't working at all.

Anyway I like them, its nice to do something a little different.

We also popped out this evening (although technically now with it being 1.21am it was yesterday evening).. This location is only 5 miles away, I'm sure we will be going back. We were fighting a little with the sun, it was running away behind the hill so we didn't have much time to mess around.

First two edits are mine.. The last one is Rorys.

I love the shape in this one, so much so that I really don't mind the grass covering my face..

Came across this hold tree, I love trees which have fallen over and exposing the roots we normally don't get to see. There was a little patch of light as well as some shadows from the tree's opposite so I thought it would be worthy of a little shot..

It was actually sunny but really chilly this evening, perhaps its the last day of summer. I hope not anyway!

Woah, only just noticed this is maybe the most images I've posted from a 20 minute shoot in my life.
I'm almost done.

This is an edit I done from a shoot last weekend when we were fighting with the sun - or begging it to stay where it was and not run away from us.

From this afternoon, we have had this recent collection of hats for 2 weeks now. We actually had to ask for a bit of an extension. So I'm glad it didn't rain all day:D

I have another small set with another hat but not got round to editing any yet, and they are quite similar to the nude shots above - only with hat and clothes on rather than skin.

Time for me to be off.. Bed is calling!!



Sometimes coincidences happen - often they are good coincidences. Being in the same place as somebody you had been meaning to call or being in the right shop when a mammoth sale is on selling things you want for 70% of their original price. I love those sorts :D

The strangest thing happened (no it wasn't another wake up call without the anxiety monster) - I wish!
My cousin who studies down south contacted me, she has recently started a beauty therapy course.. Her tutor has images of me in her portfolio - Obviously that is such a wicked coincidence that my cousin mentioned to her tutor "thats my cousin" - tutor then says "yeah I done her hair and makeup for a shoot"..

So cousin comes home and says "oh you know my tutor, she done your hair and makeup on a shoot" - "hrm.. do I?" So we passed on names - didn't ring any bells whatsoever.. I then asked what the image looked like - surprised really that out of all the images one would steal it would be a grainy websized shot from a shoot which had very little makeup and my hair was scraped back (you could barely see my face in it) - It didn't even require a MUA.. Why on heavens earth would somebody who is claiming to be a professional use such an image to advertise herself or show off her skills?

Anyway I found it really quit amusing, its all been sorted out now but it made me realise something - ANYBODY could be using our images - all over the world. That chick just had bad luck by showing her portfolio to a class of students - one of which happened to be my cousin. So in future (if anybody is listening) and that way inclined - just shoot your own images, seriously it's not very nice passing off others work as your own, its theft and its much less embarrassing to produce something crap than it is being caught red faced and confronted by the rightful owners of the thing you have nicked.

In other news.. I have had shoots, Just waiting on pictures back from them. I think I have something like 6 to blog about - Come on you lot - if you say you will take a week to edit pictures its not cool leaving them for a month and a half...

Its my birthday soon, and I'm working next Sunday (which is the eve of my birthday) so Rory and I decided to take me out shopping this morning, then go shoot with whatever we buy. I plan on buying floaty things - perhaps I will get lucky and get the sale summer clothes..


Friday, 28 September 2012

Do you always need a team?

Ok so... This is another "observation"..

Why do some people always need and rely on teams of people? - I'm not talking about guys who are shooting for a fashion magazine, just a dude from Scotland who's work is mediocre... at best.

I wanted to do a little blog on it

- Total - 3
I wanted to start off with a picture from a shoot in which the MUA/Hairstylist was an important part of it, I selected June Long to do my hair and makeup out of about 15 different people who applied. June's portfolio was beautiful, there was nothing "garish" or badly photographed and the models all looked lovely.

We didn't have a stylist or any body holding a reflector, it was freezing in the location - having somebody standing by with a blanket to warm me up with was a massive bonus too. I love June, she is a very talented person and worth her weight in gold. I had about 7 outfits with accessories ready and hung up when June arrived that day, she selected which ones she thought would work the best and we just got on with it.

I also want to take note that I value GOOD makeup artists - I have paid June since that collaboration on another shoot. So I'm not a "freeloader" who expects something for nothing all the time. I value peoples skills. I don't expect them to want to do everything just to be part of an image even if that image isn't very good.

Total - 4 and a half..

I say 4 and a half because I will count myself as half, I was basically the warmer upper and acting as an extra body to hold things for Rory or to scare away drunk people. This was one of Rory's first shoots, we had the model - Esther Kungu - Hairstylist - Nickie Flemming - Photographer- Rory and main assistant was Craig Mcguire. In this particular shot there may not have been a need for a hairstylist but the previous ones were vital. So this is the type of situation where I feel an assistant is needed for the lighting - to hold things or to watch over bags. In a studio we would never use one, or in a closed location.

Total - 4

This is Rachael Lyon, I wont count myself as a vital part of this shoot but I was there..we had the talented Sophie Alexis on Makeup and Nickie Flemming on Hair. There was no stylist or assistants, when you work with a model like Rachael she is a stylist and model all rolled into one. None of these shots where planned, Rachael pulled some looks out the bag and we worked with whatever she had. Which is how we generally work.

Total - 2

This is the super talented Maz, who I will use as the first example for this post, she is a wicked example really. She can easily do her own hair and makeup and throw together a look which is consistent and works. I was holding a reflector for a couple of shots but this was not one of them so the total for this shot was 2. Only the model and the photographer, I don't think there was any need for a 3rd/4th/5th/6th person to get this picture. Maz is not a qualified MUA but like me - she knows how to apply makeup, its maybe a skill we have learned over the years we have been modelling. Maz also submits video tutorials on youtube, videos I have watched and used before doing my makeup in the past.  Her makeup work is actually better than many of the MUA's work I've seen.

The following are all shoots Rory and I have done - with just the two of us.
We didn't have assistants - hairstylists - Nail Technicians - Photography assistants or makeup artists - stylists.. and I don't really think we would have needed one. (Latex was supplied by Miss Hell cat).
I guess the difference is we never really set out to get the images below, it wasn't planned a month in advance it was more a case of "ok lets throw this on... try this" type thing, and it worked. I could have chucked up more examples but I didn't want to bore people with too many images I've already posted previously.

Maybe its because I'm used to doing things on my own - or that I get inspired in the middle of the night, and just feel the need to create something at times when the only people available are myself and Rory. I've worked with a total of 5 makeup artists in the past - and 4 hairstylists (2 of which were also MUA's). I would say about half the time it has added to the shoot, the other times its ended up being a 2 hour waste of time and ended up costing the photographer even more time in photoshop. 

I'm a red head, I have freckles and pale skin - I remember at an early on shoot I had with a MUA I ended up orange and flakey.. I was so tempted to pass her my foundation and suggest she uses that but then I trusted her, she was the qualified expert and that it would somehow work in front of a camera (it didn't). Another time I worked with one who pretty much dictated the shots, she moved me around like I was a doll - which might work for models who cannot pose freely themselves but I do what comes naturally and that generally works for me. During that shoot I banged into another photographer in the place we were shooting, he actually laughed at me and said "eww you look ridiculous, you looked better before they arrived" not much of a confidence booster and I knew the makeup made me look like I had some sort of skin condition or had spent 3 years under a sunbed.. but there isn't much you can do about it really and the photographer who was shooting me didn't seem to mind how I looked. I got a grand total of 2 images from that 6 hour shoot - its ranked up there in my "worst shoots of all time" and part of that was because I looked stupid. The 2 images were so photoshopped that half the makeup was changed in post processing and it didn't even look like me. None went on my main portfolios either, so it didn't benefit me in the slightest..  After those experiences it took me a long time to "trust" anybody to even come near my face, these were qualified makeup artists who had trained and passed their courses. If they made me look worse I didn't have much hope for anybody else. 

I'm not great at doing makeup or very knowledgeable when it comes to fashion, I don't have the best hair and am not trained in hairdressing but I don't think thats always needed. 

I know for some models the added bonus of having a team of people do everything for you is an incentive, a big incentive.. For photographers it's also an incentive as it apparently cuts down editing times and means they can focus on the photography and let everybody else deal with their own tasks  (my above negative examples kind of go against that rule) the images may not have been ruined because of the makeup artist but having one didn't benefit us. So is it a MUST?

 So is it? Do you need somebody to hold your winky for you while you do the toilet?

Chances are you don't. I'm not an agency model and I learned these skills myself (if you can call them skills) as did my other example Maz. We don't call ourselves hairstylists or makeup artists, I have seen some images from every set a photographer has taken where there has been a large team of people and I've looked at the makeup and thought "christ, I'm not very good but I could do mines better" and then looked at the hair and thought the same thing - why does it take a hair stylist to straighten a models hair or to put it up in a pony tail - or even curl it? Thats the basics, its often quite depressing seeing a models "photoshoot/styled" images and compare them to the models "night out" images and notice the night out ones look better.. That shouldn't really be the case. Then there is the "styling" - again I'm no expert but ill fitting clothes which do not suit the location/model or makeup just seem a waste of skills to me.. If its all photographed badly or edited badly then I sit scratching my head thinking "what was the point?".. 

Maybe its my earlier experiences which leave me somewhat negative about it all  - as I said though there have been positives for me. I have valued a MUA's skill enough to pay her to do my makeup so I'm not completely against the use of makeup artists, some are great at what they do - others just make an arse of things. 

I guess this is a rant, a rant that people feel the need to use 16 people on a shoot - when the resulting images could have been done without so many people. Possibly even done better if you have a model who is confident enough to work out a look herself, most models I've come into contact with are quite good at using their initiative and working out what would look great on them and work with the location and everything else.. But then most models I know are freelance models who kind of study what is "fashionable".

I'm noticing how much I observe.. I scratch my head in wonderment so often these days. I would say its a waste having 1 talented person collaborating with 5 not so talented people.. It just seems like a waste of time. So photographers, next time you ask for - nail technicians/Hairstylists/MUA's/Assisntants/Designers and Stylists don't just say "yeah" because they are willing to all do it for free.. If you are going to that much effort to get a team together make sure its a bloody good team who can actually produce something awesome, if not then it just makes you look a bit shit that you needed so many people to help you make such a boring and lifeless bunch of pictures which showcase nobodies skills in their best light.

Saturday, 22 September 2012

sunset and 3am.

Well yesterday evening Rory and I popped out to try and catch the sunset, we failed - miserably.. It was gone while we were searching for somewhere suitable to shoot - next time we will go out earlier.. We did manage to get 1 shot though, well we got 5 but the others weren't as pretty as the one above.

Still.. we got something, and I quite like it :D

Its now 3.01am, Not sure whats happened to my sleeping.. I just don't seem to be doing much of it at the moment. I think its because I feel more awake at night than I do during the day so I'm more productive when the sun goes down.

Anyhow.. Here are a couple of self portraits from about half an hour ago, technically awful but I kinda liked the shapes and shadows so thought they were worthy of sharing.

I *think* Rory and I are doing a Sunrise shoot, or we are going to attempt to do one anyway. We have quite a few hats left to shoot before next weekend including a really beautiful white one which I can't wait to wear. I just have to figure out what will work with it and off we will go.

Anyway time for at least a few hours shut eye!!


Friday, 21 September 2012

I can never think of a title!

 Well I have been a busy little bee this week, I had a short shoot with John Mcnairn earlier this week. I think we were mainly going out location hunting but as always if there is an opportunity we must always catch it with both hands. You can see my favourites from our shoot at the end of this blog :D

I also had a shoot with somebody I have never worked with previously, He was at a training day I was modelling at last year and only lives over in Perth which makes us neighbours. His work has been growing well over the short time I've known him so it was a pleasure getting to work with him. I will blog more on that when I have some pictures to show off.

Here are more hat pictures - surprise surprise..

By Rory

Tuesday, 18 September 2012

The strangest thing happened....

I've had to re-type this several times now..
Given that this is going to be a fairly personal blog post to me I recommend those who don't like reading about how models feel away from modelling then best not to read.

I've mentioned my anxiety before in the past, although I try not to mention it to much because other than be being crap at travelling on public transport or eating out in public places it doesn't really get in the way of me modelling. Plus my method of "avoidance" is not talking about it, if I have a really bad week I generally don't say anything because to me the second its mentioned then that is reality.. People don't mean to treat me differently but if I say to Rory "I'm having a bit of a shit week" then he worries about me, I don't like people to worry about me or be watching me more closely than they normally would. I know its because my loved ones care but I would just rather put a smile on my face and get on with things.

My anxiety has been with me for 10 years, its stopped me doing quite a lot of things I would have done without any worry or fear 11 years ago. It changed me as a person, I don't run head first into hedges just for a laugh with friends, I can't just jump on a bus because I want to go somewhere. Things have to be planned but even then there are some hurdles I will never get over. I'm not sure if I should run into the things I avoid just to test myself. In the past when I have forced myself to be in situations I know will freak me out I've ended up seriously freaked out and ill afterwords. Then other times I've came out unscathed and positive that my anxiety is getting better. Truth is it never gets better, the moment I get rid of one fear something new pops up. If I get to confident of my anxiety fighting skills something comes along and kicks me in the face. I don't really fear panic attacks anymore, they are just something which happens.. I will never stop fearing how I feel everyday, I cannot control my emotions or my fears about silly little things.

I wish I was "normal", I wish I could have stuck at college without my anxiety getting the better of me. I wish I could do a normal job - I think the second I'm stuck doing something which doesn't deeply excite me then my anxiety comes along and fills my head with bad things. Truth is I've been so "f$%^ed"for years I wouldn't even be able to get a job. Last time I tried in Glasgow I somehow managed to secure one based on my previous community radio experience as a volunteer.. That job lasted two days :( I just want to make people proud of me and I want to be proud of myself. I'm actually jealous of the people who are standing in shops serving the public, I wish it was me. I know its not exactly a fantastic job but its a job an actual commitment. When I hear people moaning about their job I'm jealous, thinking they have something I would kill for but don't appreciate what they have. I know nobody would take the chance on a non educated or experienced person like me even if I know I'm a hard worker nobody else does.

So thats the back story to my anxiety - not very pretty a story really..
So the strange thing which happened was I woke up this morning and didn't feel like I had anxiety, normally the moment I wake up I have to busy myself with distractions from my thoughts or feelings but this morning I felt calm and happy.. Surrounded by my cats and Rory, it was like waking up on a really positive cloud which lifted me away from all my fears. Sadly reality kicked in 10 minutes later but those 10 minutes of calm were possibly the first 10 minutes I've had since my anxiety started. I hope that it happens again because it was truly amazing. Crazy that such a silly emotion such as being calm for a short period of time excites the hell out of me when most people don't appreciate it at all in their lives. So next time you are calm and chilled out just think of me and send some of the calm thoughts over. Anxiety will be with me forever but I might get some more of those happy and calm moments again and I look forward to them and will embrace them all the more when they arrive again.

The images in this blog are all by Rory, the ones above are "Old new" edits from a couple of years ago. This one below is the shot in the old bath I had mentioned in my previous blog :D As always hat is by hat in the cat. This one was selected to go with this dress, I'm kind of running out of suitable clothes so its out with the old wardrobe.

Happy/Calm and peaceful vibes to everyone

Remember appreciate everything you have


Sunday, 16 September 2012

more hats!!!

Surprise surprise!!
Here are some more pictures of hats...

I have even more to shoot this week, its actually really nice "having" to do shoots - there is some pressure there to get something for the designer. Even though she sets no restrictions with how we use them its always kinda nice to get something she appreciates and likes the same way we do.

I picked up a bottle of TIGI - rockaholic - rock my world - stellar smoothing cream during the week in TKMAX (bargain price) in the past I've used frizzease serum but I have to say the TIGI stuff is amazing. It actually does rock my world now that I've experienced it I doubt I will go back. My hair has been battered in the past with hairdye, and my trichotillomania doesn't really help its condition. I'm quite precious when it comes to my hair - I really don't like other people being near it or drawing attention to how damaged it is. Its quite depressing knowing I'm the person who caused all the damage.

Anyhow this product weighs my hair down a little, my hair is quite dry and it adds a bit of moisture which would make greasy hair even more greasy so I'm actually happy my hair is at the other end of the spectrum so this is perfect for making it sit just right.

I'm starting to almost run out of clothes, so the old furry jacket got a little airing in a couple of shots..

 I LOVE my gold dress, or should I say I loved it. The strap broke half way through shooting so its going to sit in the outbox destination "mother" for fixing. I picked it up ages ago at a charity shop - Karen Millen £4.50 is not to be sniffed at. I just wish I brought it out more often..

There are more nudes waiting to be edited but they might end up on a different blog or might just stay on the computer..

Here are a couple more hat type shots, very much a natural look rather than plied with makeup :D
This shows perfectly how awesome the tigi cream is - my blowdried hair is like a big frizzy splitendy mess and this is just a pea sized amount spread all over my hair and it looks better than what it does when I straighten it..

I picked up my hottie massage bar from lush today, going to give it a whirl tonight before bed time. I hope it does stimulate the bloodflow and maybe help keep me slightly warmer during the miserable winter location nude shoots I have booked. I've felt the cold in the past few days especially in the evening and I'm not 100% sure my underfloor heating is actually working so I might need to rub his soap all over myself on a daily basis. The smell of it is amazing, Its sat in its gorgeous little bag across the room and I keep getting gentle whiffs of it :D yummy!!!

I have half cleared out the spare room for my little visitor coming next week - Artemis .  It actually feels nice to have a bit of a spare room again. That room has been my "DIY//FOR THE SKIP" room and has a bath in it as well as all sorts of saws/tools/paints, I spent the afternoon sorting it out. The bath is hopefully going to get used tonight for a little shoot then its getting chainsawed and chucked in the car and taken to the bin. I wont be sad to see it go.

I either need to buy new paint or find a new wall in my house, I think I've shot against everything now. Lucky for me I have a new wallpaper going up tomorrow - matt black with shiny black flowers (it looks cool).. I'm sure it wont take long before it makes an appearance.

Anyhow... that be my news!


Thursday, 13 September 2012

something dark!

 Well I've been attempting some new things, this time it was kind of glam'ish.. Although I like to think its the classy kind of dark subtle glam rather than the  "bright/look at my breasts" type.

The best thing about them is they pretty much needed no editing, i love how my hair picks up the light in pictures.. Especially in this set!

 I've no tricks - advice - rants or recommendation with this blog, just a quick update to show this lot really.

Oh and I edited a couple of pictures from a shoot last week.. Here they are :D never say I'm not good to you!!

Chrissie xx